- 03:11 there are a million reasons to love me, and there are a million reasons to hate me. pick one. #
- 11:44 its the final run. i hope i won't disappoint. #
- 12:35 stand tall. its going on, its going on. its gonna be just fine. i'm holding on, i'm holding on today. #
- 00:08 no matter how busy, we need to do our part in keeping ourselves healthy. skipping a meal or 2 is fine, but not everyday. #
- 15:31 i'm excited about the future, and yet a part of me don't want this to end. #
- 19:41 i've got faith in us. i believe in you and me. we can make it through. so hold on, i promise it'll be alright. #
- 02:37 so when do i give up what i've been wishing for.. #
- 15:43 YES! done with lecture notes and articles. now unto tutorials! #
- 15:38 oh my gosh! what turns out to be an hour nap became a 4hr one.......... :( i lack discipline! :( #
- 16:04 cannot allow this to happen again! i must persevere! #
- 00:20 i'm everything i am, because You loved me. #
- 02:53 changing to turbo gear from 930am onwards. i can do it! meanwhile, goodnight world. #
- 12:09 instead of 930, i woke up at 12. :( stupid insomnia. #
- 19:06 3 ilects down, 5 more to go! GO GO GO! #
- 23:33 5 ilects down, 3 more to go! shall switch to the text for now... well, after cake cutting session. #
- 02:43 grad dinner was awesome. the reality of me leaving is seeping in. i must leave with a bang! #
- 03:25 Hope doesn’t promise an instant solution but rather the possibility of an eventual one.. #
- 04:44 goodnight world. #
- 12:49 你好，我愛你。 #
- 20:23 LAUGHTER = HA x 3 #
- 21:31 LOVE = LIKE x LIKE #
- 00:42 eyes oh eyes, please be good. #
- 01:59 tummy filled. eyes half dead. #
- 02:20 what's important, is how you live your life, not how you are gonna die... #
- 14:45 i can do it! #
- 16:39 somehow, weirdly, i think you're anchoring me down. #
- 18:20 grad dinner coming up... hooray to good food! #
- 00:25 numbered days. #
- 02:27 i kinda want to prevent myself from saying something stupid. but is it possible i'm kinda missing something today? like fish is to water.. #
- 13:49 all i dream about is you.. #
- 14:18 the dream is so nice, i hesitated about waking up. #
- 14:24 No. I don't like you.
You're the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me.
But you don't know. # - 16:34 have to get over it. #
- 19:13 maybe i should keep this to myself. #
- 22:16 its been 50hours and counting.. #
- 22:19 ...可知你是我生命中的,最舍不得.. #
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.
I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
I don't know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through.
If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
numbered days. that's what i'm left with in Perth.
2.5yrs ago, i saw myself dreading the beginning of this chapter.
within the 2.5yrs, i had lots of downs.
but my ups were awesome beyond description.
and now, as my journey is coming to an end, i see myself dreading the end.
this 2.5yrs have really been the most awesome time of my life, thus far.
yes, it may be true that i'm away from my family and friends.
but it made me realise and learn so much more about life itself, and what God can do in me.
i love my home, i love my family and i love my friends.
this journey hasn't been easy.
but it will definitely be a journey i'll never forget.
plans, are plans for the short term.
i don't know where God will be leading me to.
i'll try not to let anyone affect the decision i'm going to make.
most importantly, i won't let my own selfish desire dictate the kind of path i'll take.
"Child of My love, fear not the unknown morrow,
Dread not the new demand life makes of thee;
Thy ignorance doth hold no cause for sorrow
Since what thou knowest not is known to Me" - Exley
- Mood:
melancholy
- 14:37 i wish you're the right kind of right. but sadly, you're the wrong kind of right. i have to let go, eventually. #
i would really be lying if i say its not affecting me.
cause, in actual fact, its affecting me a lot.
now its the time whereby i'm told to go ahead and explore the uncertainties.
to go into the deep ocean, to take a plunge in the sky to fly.
but the first step, its so hard.
when we were young, we yearn for the freedom to go out to explore on our own.
but now, now i'm at this point, and there's so much hesitation.
i know i shouldn't be afraid, i should be very bold and courageous.
cause, i know who's holding my future- God.
perhaps living on this earth for 21yrs, i've grown accustomed to plans.
so when you're of age, you go to kindergarden, after kindergarden, primary school, then secondary school, then poly/jc, then uni.
but now what?
the journey ahead sure is an exciting one. i'm sure it will be.
but i just need to feel that peace in my heart once again.
i want to be certain what i'm gonna be fighting for. what i'm gonna be working towards.
its easy to say my plans. but i think all i need now, is assurance.
can't nobody do it like you.. i'm officially..
all of a sudden, i feel as if i lost it all.
my zest in life
my motivation.
it just really seem as if everything, is chasing after the wind.
everything seem meaningless.
i have no idea what i'm fighting for anymore.
what am i waiting for?
i feel very deflated and perhaps, beaten down.
is this even normal for every graduating person to feel this way?
sometimes i think, life would be so much simpler if i were an ostrich.
at least when faced with a problem, i can just stuck my head to the ground.
but the fact of life is, i'm a human.
in a matter of 16 days, everything will be over. or will it really be over?
i desperately need to find my footing, my position in this world.
there has got to be more than looking for a job and earning money.
i don't want the remaining of my life to be just after the pay.
but really, what is it then?
perhaps its the hayfever getting to me.
i seriously hope that's the case. or else.. its gonna be so tough.
"The greater my wisdom, the greater my grief. To increase knowledge, only increases sorrow.." Eccl 1:18
- Mood:
crushed
- 23:03 i'm crashing! even though i'm dead tired, it still puts a smile on my face.. cause you were there.. :) #
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